Simply Demetria (Demi) Lovato

Dear Demi Lovato,

Not sure if you will read this but I wanted to take the time to blog about you... You are such an inspiration to so many..you are beautiful and talented. Don't let the haters, gossip, paparazzi get to you in a way to get you down or feel ashamed. You are loved by so many.. Ignore the negative and focus on the positive..when you are doing something positive you are always going to get negative feedback in return but it's up to you to make sure you don't let it affect you and ignore it..

Think about this.. Not sure if you are into astrophysics or astronomy but after The Big Bang in the universe, there was matter and antimatter... they anihilated each other until the matter won.. basically it was like a billion vs. a billion and 1.. The same thing happens in life I truly believe, for every positive there is a negative for people, but the people who stand up and fully appreciate life and know that at the end it can always be worse then the positive wins... Not sure if you understand that or not but basically just know that you can win the positive over the negative just by "being" YOU! Nothing else matters but yourself, yes the fans are always important but they are there because of you not due to any negative person or that you aren't being yourself..just know that people love and care about you including me..you are a human being and you deserve to be happy no matter what!

My grandfather taught me that that if you ever think for one second that you can't make it, tell yourself you can, then you will make it! I have overcome so many things in my life including being Transgendered and after 3 years I have found that it wasn't as difficult as I thought it would be because I was being myself and I worked hard being determined. I'm not saying being Sarah Brouns is easy but it's not that difficult as I think it is because I never ever let anyone ever stop me from what I love and enjoy doing. Remember you can do it too..Heck you're already there..but you need to maintain it! Stay Strong and know I'm always thinking of you..you are a good person and I dont want anything bad to happen to you! 

Much love to you always!

Should I be punished for not blogging for so long and RIP Jenni Rivera

First of all I'd like to give my condolences to all the family, friends and fans of Jenni Rivera..I wasn't familiar with her music or anything but it's so sad that we have lost another singer by plane crash..so many have died this way like Aaliyah or Buddy Holly... My thoughts, prayers and well wishes do go out. This once again proves how precious life really is..that in a blink of a eye it can be over. She just tweeted over 20 hours ago and now she's gone...blink of an eye.. RIP Jenni Rivera!

It does look like I do have some haters in my real life aside from Twitter but I forgive those people. They are mad at themselves and have their own issues that they feel the need to take it out on others..so sad..I'm glad that I can continue to rise above them and keep going forward with my goals and dreams cause I'm not going to quit!!

Please don't be mad that I haven't blogged in such a long time...maybe tomorrow I could do some more to make up for it...will I be punished? LOL! 

Amanda Bynes..your friend Jennie Garth wants to help you!

I think it's amazing and wonderful that Jennie Garth is willing to reach out to Amanda Bynes... Amanda Bynes..you are such a talented young actress...you still have so much to give to people when it comes to TV or movies plus in your personal life as well..don't throw it away...we all have our demons and problems but giving up or doing so many wild things that is against the law or against your health isn't the answer...the beauty of life is working out your problems and achieving every new challenge. I know... I've been through so much in my life already at the age of 38. So many people care for you and they don't want to see you dead or hurt so much that you could die or whatever the case may be. You are blessed to have the great talent you have...your role on "What I Like About You" was so awesome and funny...you can do something like that again if you turn around and put your heart into it! I too am looking to make something great out of my life but you are already a star and you can be a bigger star by just realizing how blessed you are with the people around you such as Jennie Garth who cares about you so much...please contact her and talk to her...do it for your fans, your family, your friends and most importantly do it for yourself because you only get one life...don't let everything slip away!! 

Much love to you and I am praying that you will turn around and make a better life for yourself again soon!!

This blog to Amanda Bynes is in response to this article.. http://tv.yahoo.com/news/paging-amanda-bynes--jennie-garth-would-like-a-word-with-you.html

Some things can't be changed but it's up to me how I feel and to just not worry about it

It can be so frustrating at times looking in the mirror knowing that I'm not fully female..things that I can't change right now such as the bridge of my nose to the forehead and some other things that aren't as feminine as I would like...but considering just about 3 years ago when I started my transition..I have come a long way and I'm blessed for what changes have occured. I do know that all I can do is move forward and just keep the faith..you don't need to be religious to have faith..it's in one self to just not worry about what you can't change and know that in the future everything will be OK.. My Opa (grandfather) told me that if you tell yourself every day that you will make it even if it looks bad then you will make it...things may not always seem great at the time but you can't give up and you just have to keep pushing as much as you can. It's not always easy being myself but if I want to truly be happy then I can't stop now..I've come this far so why would I stop and go back to the person I was?

There will be a day when I'm truly 100% happy..Yes this is the happiest I've ever been since a kid and I'm being myself but deep inside I know that there is much much much more work ahead of me with goals and my dream...and I also know that I can't stop no matter how far I get...that if I truly want to be 100% happy I need to keep going until the day I die.. with all the hard work and determination then the reward will be that much sweeter...overall I'm still passing as a woman..no one ever questions me as a woman at least when I'm not wearing my security uniform..I know I can't change all of how I look and that people will still think of me as a guy in that security uniform if they don't know I'm Sarah... but there are natural born women that have been looked at as a guy in security uniforms too... so I know I just have to take everything in stride and just remind myself that it's just the job..which I take very seriously but when I'm off work then I can be myself 100%. No one needs to know what I have done except me unless I feel comfortable enough to tell someone...with my confidence and drive and determination the only thing that matters is that how I feel inside not what anyone else thinks. People may judge me or make fun of me but at the end I'm still living my happy life and that other person is still going to have personal issues.

Happy 25th anniversary to Star Trek: The Next Generation

I can't believe it's been 25 years since Star Trek: The Next Generation first went on the air on September 28th in syndication so it's stil the first week of airing. Thank you Wil Wheaton, Gates McFadden, LeVar Burton, Patrick Stewart, Jonathan Frakes, Brent Spiner, Marina Sirtis, Denise Crosby and Michael Dorn with special thanks to Diana Maldaur and Whoopi Goldberg whom didn't come into the series until the 2nd season. I was just 13 years of age and still in Junior High School when Encounter at Farpoint first aired. I was in Ft. Huachuca, Arizona right outside of Sierra Vista (very close to Tombstone and Bisbee) when I watched that episode with my best friend..his name was Brian Weaver..both of us sons of military family (I was still Alexander Brouns at the time)..of course that was years before I even thought of wanting to transition.

I was a huge fan of the original series so imagine how excited I was to see this spinoff..in 1987 it was so futuristic and never saw anything like it before...such a great cast and a wonderful new model of the Enterprise with a saucer separation which was out of this world. The only actor I knew anything about was Michael Dorn at the time and now it's so cool to put in my DVD collection of the series and see these great actors who I have seen do many other things since then. I so much enjoyed 7 great season and 4 movies from this spinoff...I could go on and on about the show but for now I will just say thank you again for being created 25 years ago and I still enjoy watching it. 

I also want to thank Ron Jones, Jay Chattaway and of course Dennis McCarthy for scoring some great episodes beginning 25 years ago...I never thought that I'd be fan of any kind of score but beginning in 1993 I began collecting soundtracks and I still enjoy listening to the TNG scores that are on CD and in episode!